Category Archives: Major Depression

My journey into and out of the dark

There is always hope

I am definitely struggling.  I can feel the seductive pull of depression, waiting for me, just around the corner. It has been almost 2 years, to the day, that I was hospitalized for Major Depression with psychotic episodes.  Two years, … Continue reading

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Unwanted thoughts

Unwanted thoughts keep popping into my head; need to keep myself distracted so as not to get caught up in the never-ending vortex of worry and guilt.   No matter what has taken place in the past, I am and always … Continue reading

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Acceptance

Approaching the one year anniversary of my “descent into hell”; and where am I today?  I am pleased to say that I am healthy and, for the most part, happy.   I’ve learned enough to mostly manage (live with) my troublesome … Continue reading

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Could I be Manic

What is wrong with me?  Honestly, sometimes I feel as though I’m incapable of not spending money.  I think I may have a serious problem with “impulse control” when it comes to purchasing.  Do you think I could I be … Continue reading

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Risk

March 7, 2012 Awake at 5:00 a.m., the “witching” hour, when I am most consumed with ruminating thoughts about my daughter, SA.  I do everything in my power to stay in the present moment, but I am unable to find … Continue reading

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Journal Entry

UGH, longest day ever in Day Treatment… I hate how I feel; fat, bloated, irritable, sad, exhausted (depression or menopause; doesn’t matter, the symptoms for both are almost identical), skin and everything else totally dried out, worrying non stop about everything and … Continue reading

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What is Major Depression

Webster’s dictionary defines major depression as “a mood disorder having a clinical course involving one or more episodes of serious psychological depression lasting two or more weeks each with no intervening episodes of mania”. I realized, only recently, that what happened … Continue reading

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